...Even when the Tenipuri animators pick the right colour for a characters hair, they get it wrong. OTL


I really can't believe I don't get a christmas break until Dec 24, it sucks so much.
In the mean time I've still got piles of work to catch up on. OTL
How's everyone's week so far? ^__^

I was going to post yesterday, but I ended up going to bed at 10pm @___@;;
The problem with LJ, is that I really don't know what to post about generally. OTL

OH, BUT. My calendar turned up yesterday. \o/ It's the tenipuri 2010 one~ I-I love it so much.

And, I only got 1 reply last time, so does anyone want a christmas card from me~? ^__^ ♥

I'm feeling genuinely relaxed for once, it's... nice. \(^o^)/

I bought Black Blood Brothers on DVD the other week, and I've still only watched 4 episodes (orz;;) it's awesome though.
It's a vampire anime. :D Jiro's a proper vampire, he doesn't sparkle in sunlight... he kind of smoulders a bit. XD;; And he's bad at running water too. /Watches more later

I want something new to play, even though I don't really have the free time. Recently no games have been particularly appealing to me... :/ Well, Assassin's Creed 2 came out recently, but my brother's getting it for Christmas, so I can't play it until then. *headdesk*
Any reccomendations? /preferably DS or PS2, but basically on anything except PS3. XD

I want to send you guys Christmas cards because you're awesome people, anyone want one? :Db

//Edit: Okiayu Ryoutarou, why is your voice so nice to listen to? <3

Now that I've had a good nights sleep I actually feel a lot better.
I think I just had so many things going on my head was trying to explode, but saying all that helped. So, uh, thank you for the kind comments, I really love you guys, and I'm lucky to have you. ♥

Now since Christmas is coming up, I'm gonna give you guys gifts in the form or fanart. /it's, like, the only thing I'm good at. XD So, uh request away? 8D;
Naturally, it'll be easier for me to do art from something I know, but I will do other things too. :)
As for 'something I know'... I have an anime list, and a manga list. And, take a good guess with the video games and other things? XDD;;
Be as specific or vague as you want, I'm not fussy, just a bit of a procrastinator, but I'll do it by Christmas. ♥ ...probably

So... why am I posting at 3 am? Basically because I've been awake for the last hour crying.

My coursework deadlines have come and gone, and I didn't manage to finish anything really, I was too busy being stupid and trying to avoid everything altogether. I keep being asked if I really want to stay at college; and I really do, after all I already wasted a year of my life.

But, everything just seems to much: My parents splitting up, all this coursework that I'm not used to, my uncle died the other week as well. I've also been dwelling on things that I've spent the last 5 or so years trying my absolute best to forget ever happened. They're the kind of things that you're sure you'll never be able to talk to anyone about ever.
I would talk about it here, but I'm too busy trying to protect people. I hate it in a way, I hate that I try to potect the people that have caused me so much pain, but I know I'd feel guilty if didn't.

To be honest, I don't know what to do at all, I just want to try and keep moving in life, but it just seems impossible. Everyone keeps telling me that I shoul talk to somene about it, but who? My family's in the direct center of it, my RL friends don't seem to want to have anything to do with me most of the time, and my frequent absenses from online mean I doubt that anyone here really cares enough to... well, care.
That's not anything against you guys, seriously. I just wish I wan't such a terrible friend.

I think that's as close to venting that I'll ever get. I guess I'll go and see if I can get anymore sleep, then.

A slightly late...
Haha, I seriously was going to do that yesterday, but I went on a trip to look around a university, when I got home I was so tired I fell asleep for a couple of hours. When I woke up, I had dinner and went straight to bed. - w -;
I've been so exhausted lately, it's such a pain. I was meant to do some of my art coursework yesterday, but I didn't. :/ THIS IS NOT GOOD.

So, how's everyone's week so far? @__@;;

WHUT SELF.
Instead of posting why I've been missing, I just go missing again? orz;;;;
I swear, I'll get better at this some day. ;A;

So, um, a lot's happened, sort of. :/ I dunno, for no good reason I stopped going to college, and I've been really depressed, and now I'm really behind on all my work, so I'm even more depressed. All the while I just keep denying to everyone that there's anything wrong, when there clearly is. I just don't know what.
Can't I just relax and get on with life? That's all I really want, but I just wanting to cry for no reason.
It's... more annoying than anything else. I really hate it, for the first time in 5 years I've wondered about if it would make a difference to anyone if I threw myself in front of a car. I would never actually do that. But these thoughts aren't heathy for... anyone realy. :|

*Shrugs*
In other news, I caught up watching FMA, Im still 20 episodes behind on Shinkenger and I bought the full series of Black Blood Brothers on DVD. I've only watched the first episode so far, but it's looking pretty good. :D
And I finally finished the 3rd Discworld book, and am now reading the 4th, Mort. My favourite character is still Death, haha.

FFFFF.

I WANT IT JUST FOR THE COVER.
But it costs ￥10,000. :|

/will post later to explain absence... or tomorrow, maybe. orz;;

I'm on a complete Bleach kick recently. I mean, aside from the manga being just plain awesome (....I love the vaizards, so yeah. XD) I also played Bleach 3rd Phantom on DS and completed it in 3 days-ish.
I should just say now how much I love that game. The character interactions~~ and it was written by Kubo, so it works well into canon, despite the OCs it revolves around. Presonally, I was amused to be able to stalk Byakuya, Ichigo and Renji into the hot springs... and later Yoruichi & Soi Fon. XD I know playing as the male character you spy on Yamamoto, with Hisagi, Izuru and... someone else, I can't remember... *only knows this from my brother* Izuru is passed out from the extreme heat... XD
And I just downloaded Bleach 4th Flame Bringer (...I think that was the title... <<;)

Uh, anyway, enough of that, so because of all this, I started watching the anime... yesterday, and I'm now in the middle of episode 43. @__@;; Apparently I really can't remember the Soul Society arc well; so many details I had forgotten. ;O

Now... I really need some Bleach icons... but I have no room. orz;;

...the only thing I'm wearing today that isn't black, white of grey is my glasses, and they look black most the time. o_O;;

Anyway, so... Naniwa no Oujisama~~( Mini-cap spam~ 8D )

Haha, I love this OVA so much, I actually have just short of 400 caps for just this episode. xD
I might do a capspam of the Rikkai one too~ maybe ;D

I keep waking up early, even though I don't have to :/ For the past week, I've consistantly woken up between 5:30 & 6:30 am... >_<
It means that by the time it's around 11:00 am *cough*Now*cough* I feel like it's later, and 'm about ready to go to bed by, like, 9:30pm. Aha, hopefully it will sort itself out soon~

I've started reading my way thorough Terry Pratchett's discworld series, after reading Wintersmith /the only Pratchett book my mum owns/ last week xD; Since then, I've bought the first 3 (The Colour of Magic, The Light Fantastic and Equal Rites), and read two of them. :o
I think.... I'm going to spend a fortune buying the discoworld series in the near future. xD

An Cafe's new album; BB Parallel World... I can't stop listening to it, seriously, I really love it, I'm so glad I bought it, and that arrived so quickly ;A; ♥ Nyappy in the Parallel World is officially my favourite Nyappy in the World song~ /followed by #3
I also got the album that Ookawa Genki released earlier this year, as well as a couple of Reborn clear files (Dino & 20YL!Lambo), and a Tsuna notebook~

So, right now I'm inexplicably happy. xD

So I've had just over a full week at college, an I've been so tired from it I haven't even been reading my flist, let alone commenting... orz; sorry guys. ;A; ♥
That said, I haven't been using the computer much at all, just cheking emails, sorting through them, the doing work. :/

So, the AS levels I'm doing this year are Maths, Applied ICT, Textiles and Art.
To be honest, we haven't done a great deal of work yet, but it's been fun, meeting new people, having something to do in the day, haha, Fridays are a bit of a pain though, I have a 4-hour gap between the only two lessons I have, but it takes me like an hour to get home and back, so I could leave and come back... but yeah.
My art teacher, Bob, is kind of cool, yesterday when we were doing charcoal/chalk still life drawings, he was kind of going rround checking everyone's work, making comments and suggestions, y'know, normal teacher-y stuff, then when he got to me, he either just went 'good' and walked off, or didn't say anything at all...
._.;; Is that a good thing or a bad thing?

Oh yes, Pokemon HG/SS was released in JP recently, I tried to play it on my DS Edge, but it won't save, and sometime crashes in battles.... XD;;; I'll have to wait for a firmware update. :(

agsfukaihfa. New Tezuka album. I don't know why, the title made me laugh.

I was meant to post this a few days ago.... oh well~

So, on last Thursday, I had my enrollment to college. And my first day's tomorrow... I'm kinda excited (LOLWOT?) but mostly nervous XD;;;
So it's time to start my A levels :D On that nte I got maths homework at the enrollment. WHAT. Oh well, it wasn't hard, it was 6 pages long though. orz;

Moving on from that... xD
I bought the last 3 volumes of Yu-Gi-Oh! In otehr words, I now own all 38 volumes of the series~ \o/ It only took me.... 4 years? Haha.
I also got the next 3 of Fruits Basket today, putting me to 21/23 volumes~

I preordered An Cafe's new album a while ago, it's released on the 9th, and my order was shipped today ;D /wills it to get here fast

.........Shraishi's version of Dear Prince. If you haven't heard it..... IT'S AMAZIN'. fo'srs. I knew there was a reason I adored Shiraishi, he has such a really nice voice~ I suppose I have Hosoya-san to thank for that... but snfhsah.dkj. SHIRAISHIIIIII

I started playing Kingdom Hearts again on expert. I lost to the Cave of Wonders like 462781 times, but beat the Parasite Cage first go. WHUT?

Also, I'm bored, what should I draw? :|

I don't know what 2010 calendar to get... orz;;;
I really don't. I'm bad at descision making..........

I'm most impressed I worded that to have the right number of links .......I suppose it could be worse, then again, those are only the animanga ones I want. <<;;
But, there's always Shinkenger XD

Y'know, I never realized I had a picture with TYL!Chrome in it floating around my KHR folder... ♥
( among others ♥ )
Am I the only one who can't decide who looks best in that image? *___*

So, today my brother came home with a PS3 game... We don't have a PS3. It was a preowned copy of the limited edition Assassin's Creed, with the resin Altair figure.... I WANT IT. NOW. TT_TT I wonder how much he'll make back after selling the game...?

I don't think any of my f-list read One Piece, right? Oh well... ;A; Poor Oar. Seriously, he was a wonderful giant, for the couple of chapters he's been around. But Ace is gonna be pissed, when he can use his powers again, the marines will burn. Completely. Really... IF, that is, there's anything left of them after White Beard oes something about this... x_o

Naruto made me laugh. At least the other Kage's are sensible enough not to trust Danzo.

I REALLY need to catch up with 1/2 Prince, I haven't read, like, the past 20 or so chapters... *facepalm*
And the Reborn anime too.... unless someone could tell me right now where the Arcobaleno arc starts? :o

( <3 )
Have I ever mentioned how awesome my parents mum is? <33333

And I've got, like, £265.
Admittedly £200 is from my grandparents to go towards driving lessons, but still~~ <33333

Oh, wow, I'm good a this who updating thing............</sarcasm> *facepalm*

So, anyway, it's my birthday tomorrow, last week I went shopping in London with my mum, it soundls lame, but it's fun. :D We bought a fair bit of stuff, most of it being my birthday present.... but now I've been told something that she ordered should be arriving tomorrow... I'm excited about it~~ Although, it means I can't go out tomorrow until it turns up. <<; And she bought me the next 2 volumes of Yu-Gi-Oh manga, now I'm up to 35/38 total~! 8D

The past couple days I've spent making icons.... all KHR and Kingdom Hearts.... this is what my boredem does. Have I mentioned that I have a wesite now? XD;;;
The Kingdom Hearts is mostly because I've finally been able to play KH 358/2 Days, and god that game is addicting. That's all I've been playing, but that could be just be because my save of KHR DS Flame Rumble X corrupted..... orz;;;

dsngl/kdf. I've got college enrollment on September 3rd. *DIES* Oh well, I have been waking up at 6AM anyway........... ;A;

And on a One Piece note: FFFFFF HE'S A PHOENIX. A PHOENIX! THAT'S SO AWESOME.

GAWD, I just spent the whole day watching DL6 and all the extras. I hadn't read any reviews or anything of the myu, so I really didn't know what to expect.... SHITENHOUJI ♥♥♥♥ I swear everytime I see them I love them more.

( I mean, just look at those clothes (uh, image heavy cut) )

I swear. maybe
So another long absence for me? *facepalm* I swear I spend most of my time here pologising for being rea~lly inactive. orz;;; Sorry bout that too. It's just I never feel I hve nything to update about :/ Since I'm not at college until September.... hm. anyway

I spent last week at Saz's (raikka_lilly ). It's the first time I've actually been there.... her dog is really loud. :o We bother tried Teriyki chiken ramen and crab roll sushi at a Japanese restaurant, while I was there, it was so nice~ Particularly the sushi with some wasabi sauce. :D ♥

When I got back home yesterday I had a letter from 6th form, I've got to enroll on September 3rd~ I'm kind of nervous, but quite excited too. XD

dhfhsjl,l;sk. I'm kind of busy working on some stuff now, so I guess I'll leave this here... I swear, I will post again in the next few days, I won't disappear again *facepalm*